I Don't Know What I'm Doing... But Who Really Does?

 

I have been told a lot over my life that by a certain point you will just 'figure it out' and that 'everything will just fall into place'. 

Honestly, I don't believe it.

I don't think I ever did. I certainly hoped I would be able to 'figure it out' and that 'everything will just fall into place'. I spent my 20's struggling financially and well... just struggling all round. My mid-twenties shadowed by a health diagnosis that will follow me for the rest of my life, depression abounds.

I spent time in therapy, learnt about setting boundaries and accepting situations, and emotions that come from them (highly recommend). It took a lot of work and I spent a lot of time working through guilt, feelings of failure, expectation, resentment, etc.

 I sat down with financial planners to look at how to structure my in vs. out flow of cash and tried to rein in my bad habits all round (still a work in progress but it is progressing).

Essentially I took stock of my life, I realized that I don't have this figured out and no sh*t is not just falling into place. I was not where I had thought I would be, nor was I wear I now wanted to be. 

Am I there now?

 No, but with help I reluctantly (at first) asked for I am finally getting there.

 My mental health is better, allowing me to seriously start putting my physical and emotional wellbeing forward as a priority, with some assistance my finances have begun recovering (no thanks to Afterpay the devil!) and I am in the process of selling a home I have lived my whole 20's in.

No one knows what they are doing in this journey called life, not completely. So in the areas you need help, be ok with asking for help. And in the areas you are good at, in those things that you excel at help others that need it too.

A fresh start, A new perspective and a productive future ahead.